And it's the feel of your touch That shudders inside The kiss of your lips That rages so wild Your careless caress That ignites with desire The flame in your eyes That sets me on fire It's that smile you give That says we're just friends But when day turns to night That suddenly ends You feed from my heart And prey on my soul You decide what I want Even when I say no You take what you crave And think I'll submit Against my own will Like I would forget But I can't fight the temptation Your power's so strong Don't want you to stop Even though it's so wrong. Then you relax Your body asleep Your mind lay resting And your memories will keep Locked tight away As morning becomes Vibrant in our eyes Bright like the sun You turn over and smile Reality sets in The moment fades And you're you again -Dec 16, 1999- These goddamned wounds Won't heal themselves I feel lost beyond all hope Can't stop the tears which Burn my cheeks And scar my very soul I feel so torn The conflicts too great And my thoughts, I can't decide My heart is black, I cannot breathe The pain's so deep inside Sometimes I wish, death would find me And cease my constant fight Just one smile I yearn to keep Just one damned peaceful night I'm wrapped in the arms of a bitter life There's too much sorrow I feel And I know I'm being teased With a single glimpse Of a grasp onto something real And my wounds I think Will bleed forever Never a chance to mend The longer I live, The deeper it hurts I fear it will never end. -Oct 23, 2001- Just want it to end The feeling inside And the razorsharp tears Which spill from my eyes Can't take the pain That clouds up my soul Feeds from my heart Strikes a hard blow Want it to stop Tired of bleeding Strained from the fighting Weak from the feeling Wish I could find The peace buried deep Like a smile for once I yearn to keep I'm falling apart Losing control Of what I once had My body, my soul Take me away To a quieter place I'll disappear quickly Without leaving a trace. -May 4, 2001- Embrace me with your warming glow Surround me with your light Bring to me that power you hold Draw me into the night Stretch me along the canvas of silk Bind me with the ties Sketch me with the tips of your fingers Paint me with your eyes Spread my thighs, bind them gently Gaze upon my fire Stroke the wetness I create Then please take me higher Touch across my silky flesh Lightly kiss my mound Sip of my drink, enjoy my flavour Guide your tongue around Feel my body tremble, shake How I crave to ride Grasp ahold of my raised hips And slide yourself inside Listen to my moan of heat As I caress your length Hot and wet, I wrap around I can feel you losing strength Watch me quiver as you press deep Caught amidst the lust Our steady rhythem unites our cries Until the final thrust One last push and you explode Your sigh comes long and slow Collapse atop me, hold me close Let our dampness flow Encircle me quickly, release the bonds Kiss my lips goodnight And as we drift into our dreams Against your chest, hold me tight -Oct 5, 2001- …burn burn it into my skin make me feel the ache painful pleasure… leave a mark to trace with your fingers later…while I lie stretched beside you, draped in crimson glow.. …please kiss my tears… tell me I’ve been a good girl and I’ll be rewarded fed from your palm like a needy bitch… whimpering in ecstasy ….mark me mark me completely with your lust, your pleasure your desire for more crisscross of scarlet fever clinging to pale skin oh, how beautiful ..hurt me.. ohgod..please hurt me make it good make me cry… those tears scald cleanse my soul reach deep inside to tear away the dark.. ..listen …listen to me beg for more I need to feel it to surrender to it to that wave of intense…need to purge my heart of everything naughty…everything bad dirty girl.. I am a dirty girl lead by your invisible leash controlled by that single hand and I will crawl to you slither for you I will make myself pretty on my knees… before you ..take.. take me hard break my will bend my pride slam me against a stone wall and I will falter I promise.. I will tumble into your arms into your grip into you -June, 2005- I'd like to feel the softness of your breath Touch across my cheek The gentle pads of your fingertips Stroke along my sea The closeness of your body Pressed just as eagerly to mine And the lingering sounds of your whisper A melody so devine I'd like to feel your heartbeat Pound beneath your chest As your fingertips glide my curves so simply Searching for the crest The way your lips stretch around my flesh A sensation without words And the warmth of your envelopement So gentle and unheard I'd like to feel your pulsing beat As you grasp tightly at my thigh The emotion of my heart with yours Feeling so impossibly right The tremor of your warmth fulfilling Passion at its peak And the slow caress of my lovers hand Silky, soft and sweet. I'd like to hear your song of pleasure Sweep across the air The tides of ecstasy once more reached A lifetime that we share. Fallen, surrendered between your arms Curled within your embrace Listen to our pulses chime Hear our heartbeats race I'd like to relive this moment forever Just to taste your tears The scent of you so wonderously taken Easing all my fears Intoxication renders me weak While laying beneath your reign Fit me around your heated blaze And ride with me once again Feb 21, 2001-