For me to submit I must have an incredible amount of trust. In both myself and the One to who I submit. I must feel safe, secure, loved and wanted. Submission, to me is about being controlled, about being dominated in all ways. It's not merely about the sexual aspect of relationship. There must be more. The mental aspect of a Master/submissive relationship must run deep. It is that part of the relationship that brings every single other aspect into full bloom. To have that trust, security, need, want, is what makes it perfect to me. Without that intensity in the relationship it would simply be like any other relationship. To seek this out leaves me open for pain and heartache. But not to do so leaves me empty and unfulfilled.
To find The One that fits me, I had to find One with who I 'connected'. One that with whom I could build a trusting relationship. A relationship that is not built from the interactions of a Dominant and submissive, but on trust and honesty.

Lucky for me, I have found One. A strong, enduring, protective Man. And He has graciously made me His.

I belonged to Him.
I was His.
Heart, mind, body and soul.
He was my Master, my Protector, my Lover, and my Heart.
January 2, 2008
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He thinks I betrayed Him.
He thinks i no longer love Him.
Why is it He can't see?
Won't see?
He said I've broken His heart.
Why can't He see mine is in pieces too?
I love Him.
I do.
But I never knew, just never knew
I'd ever have the chance to hold Him in my arms.