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Glorianna Belladonna

Broken....
The world around us is broken into so many pieces, like a puzzel tossed to the ground helter skelter. Each piece, so very fragile. So very delicate and cherished. How will we ever put all the pieces back together? How will we ever find balance.

Balance...
For up there is down, for left there is right. Balance, its, so difficult to achive. How to keep things balanced between what is needed, and what is wanted? Finding that central point and spinning like a top in all directions to make sure every little detail is taken care of. Everything, but your own dreams, because what good is it to have dreams when the world around you is crumbling into rust colored sand and you lose your garden....

Shadows in the garden...
Light and dark. Thin threads that weave and swirl forming the tapistry of our lives. Some threads of light stronger then others, some threads of dark strangling the life out of the light around you. Drowing you in sorrow....

Something wicked this way comes...
And it comes in the whispers of Your dreams, it steals your light, like a tiny bit of moss that slowly grows. So slow you do not notice until your wall is covered in a mass of darkness. Its that nag of fear in the back of your mind. That whisper of dread and doubt, and if you let it..It will consume You..

History

You can call me, Belladonna.
I suppose you could say, this all started because You and I do not see the world in the same way. For me, everything must have balance. For me there is beauty in everything. For me, everyone has rights, even those that other considers evil.
Like my cousin Sebastian...

Some day. I know, I will have to sit down and talk to him about these things, but, right now. Right now, i can not find the words that I need. My words are simple, and few. Usually, they are not well recieved, but they are honest. Even when that truth does not want to be seen. Usually, when that truth is wanted to be hidden.

It all started, because, he, and others like him, needed a home. As i said, i can see beauty in everyone. Everyone is touched by, and craves light and love, even if they don't realize it, don't understand how to reach for it.

When we come of age, we are all given our own gardens. Gardens we have to tend, and work with. Each part of our garden represents a small place in the world. Like a puzzle, once piece over another, shines for us, and we fit it to ourselves until the garden is built. And like a puzzle, each piece can only fit with what it was created to fit to, before the world was shattered.

But no where in the world, was there a place for him, and for those like Him. So i changed things. I fit new pieces together, to make the Den of Iniquity. I made it for Him, yes, but not him alone. For all the others like him, who were shades of gray. Because i thought creatures, like bulldemons, and incubus cross breeds and certain humans needed a place like the Den. Because of this. My teachers, my guides. The people who are supposed to cherish me and train me to be a better person, tried to take me out of the world and lock me in my gardens.

I was 15.

I was a child, who just wanted to spread love and joy, and they shattered what i knew to be. They made me an outcast. People I trusted. Turned on me, and shut me out.

Now, I shut them out.

Because, in the end, its not them, that i am concerned with. Its Ephemera. She is all that matters to me. Travel lightly. Thats the saying. Because what you bring with you becomes part of the landscape.

That is true for every person who lives in this world. It is especially true for Landscapers, because they are the  sieve through which Ephemera manifests what is reflected in all those hearts. The resonance of their hearts provides the bedrock through which the currents of Dark and Light flow, keeping people safe from the bedlam of their own emotions while still allowing the true desires of the heart to become real.

Landscapers are the bedrock. Other people, and Ephemera itself depend on them to find a balance between the Light and Dark aspects of ourselves in order to filter the Light and Dark currents that are this world's wonderful and terrible power.

So i have to find that balance, I have to walk in a world of gray, just so others can have light. So that others can live and be happy. Do i regret it? Never, not for a second. Because even with the pain that they caused me, I have grown from it, i have learned from it, and its made me a better person. For those that ask for my help, no matter who they are, that help is given. If its sincerly asked for. For those that cross me? There is no where left to hide.

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Belladonna Glorianna © 2008
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